Picking Up The Pieces And Starting Over

Yesterday I had a bad day. I got angry, struggled with lust, and found myself critical of almost everyone who crossed my path. This morning in my time with God, as I “licked my wounds,” I offered up this prayer to Him. If you are able to identify with me, you may want to pray along as you read:


“Lord, this morning I confess to you my abject poverty, wretchedness, hypocrisy, coldness of heart, judgmental spirit, indifference to others; my self-centeredness, greed, unimaginable pride, self-serving motives, coldness of heart, vile profanity, and sensuality.”


[“Blessed are the poor in spirit, for theirs is the kingdom of heaven. Blessed are those who mourn, for they will be comfortedBut the tax collector stood at a distance. He would not even look up to heaven, but beat his breast and said, God, have mercy on me, a sinner.‘” (Matthew 5:3, 4; Luke 18:13)]


“If you kept track of my sins I would be finished. I feel self-condemned and wretched. Yet I know that if I can’t accept your forgiveness, I am rejecting the very essence of the cross. Unworthy as I am, I must grasp the truth that you have always loved me; that you actually died for me; thus releasing me from condemnation – even self-condemnation. I need to remember that I will spend eternity as the recipient of your lavished love. Incomprehensibly, you actually delight in me, and derive pleasure from me. If that isn’t amazing grace, I don’t know what is!”


[“If you, O Lord, kept a record of sins, O Lord, who could stand? But with you there is forgiveness; therefore you are fearedI [God] have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness… ‘ In him we havethe forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of Gods grace that he lavished on usto be put into effect when the times will have reached their fulfillmentI do not judge myselfKeep me as the apple of your eye; hide me in the shadow of your wings.” (Psalm 130:3, 4; Jeremiah 31:3b; Ephesians 1:7-9 selected; 1 Corinthians 4:3b; Psalm 17:8)]


“So today, I will choose to delight in your unconditional love, and once again take baby steps in learning how to let go, relax, and allow your Spirit free access to the depths of my being. Help me today Lord, when that ugly part of my nature starts to rear its nasty head, to surrender it over to you; to not allow lust, or impatience, or pride, or greed to gain a foothold; to instantly lift my heart up to you in surrender. May each step, each awareness, each encounter, and each challenge, be quietly given over to you.”


[“Delight yourself in the Lord and he will give you the desires of your heartFlee the evil desires of youth, and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heartSo I say, live by the Spirit, and you will not gratify the desires of the sinful nature.” (Psalm 27:4; 2 Timothy 2:22; Galatians 5:16)]


“Would you, Lord, teach me today how to rest in your presence and unconditional grace, filled with, and controlled by, your Holy Spirit? In Jesus’ Name, Amen.”


[“But grow in the grace and knowledge of our Lord and Savior Jesus ChristSince we live by the Spirit, let us keep in step with the Spirit.” (2 Peter 3:18a; Galatians 5:25)]



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